Reliving Monet's Late Years & Gauguin's Spiritual Journey


Started off Pisces season the right way, at the de Young Museum with my sisters and cousins! I was especially excited to see the exhibit Monet: The Late Years. Additionally, the museum was hosting another collection Gauguin: A Spiritual Journey. Here are some of my favorites, starting with Claude Monet's poignant exhibit.



"Water Lilies," ca. 1914-1917.
The free little stickers that the
museum hands out to visitors
featured this particular painting.

Monet: The Late Years



"Water Lilies, Reflections of Tall Grasses," ca. 1897.

















Claude Monet's work towards his later years in life exude such emotion. From losing multiple loved ones, coping with vision loss, and living so close to the conflict of WWI, he had enough reason to stop painting altogether--he even took a self-imposed break!--yet, it was his life's passion and he kept on making art, despite his feelings of despair.


"Water Lilies," ca. 1915-1926. This painting was so large, it took up an entire wall.

"Water Lilies," ca. 1914-1915.


"Irises," ca. 1914-1917.














Admiring the vivid colors of his Impressionist art style, one is drawn to the darkness of his late works although the reason for it is heartbreaking:

It was in 1905 when his perceptions of color began changing. Monet was officially diagnosed with cataracts in 1914, which began clouding his vision. Colors no longer looked brilliant and he couldn't depict shades of light correctly.

Concurrent to this vision impairment, several tragic events seemed to plague Monet one after the other: his second wife, Alice, died in 1911. Then his eldest son, Jean Monet, became sick and died in 1914. That same year World War I began in which both his younger son, Michel Monet, and longtime friend, Georges Clemenceau, served under the French flag.


"Yellow Iris," ca. 1917-1919.
“Nothing in the whole world is of interest to me but my painting and my flowers.” 

- remark, shortly after the death of his second wife Alice in 1911


"Japanese Bridge," ca. 1899.

"Japanese Bridge," ca. 1918-1924.
Monet's cataracts resulted in blurred vision and made everything appear in muddy, red-orange colors. His frustrations about this materialized in several unfinished paintings and canvases he'd slashed, torn or ripped before casting aside. Above all, he was strongly determined to keep painting; he memorized the order of pigments on his palette, so he may still paint the colors he was no longer able to perceive.

Also during this time, Monet created stunningly vivid works in red-orange hues which gave his audience insight on how he saw the world through his vision impairment.


"Path Under Rose Arches," ca. 1918-1924.

"Weeping Willow," ca. 1920-1922. His series of
weeping willow paintings represent his mourning
and sorrow for the fallen French soldiers of WWI.

Though I remained insensitive to the subtleties and delicate gradations of colour, my eyes at least did not deceive me when I drew back and looked at the subject in its broad lines, and this was the starting-point of new compositions... Slowly I tried my strength in innumerable rough sketches which convinced me... I could see as clearly as ever when it came to vivid colours isolated in a mass of dark tones. How was I to put this to use? My intentions gradually became clearer... I said to myself, as I made my sketches, that a series of general impressions, captured at the times of day when I had the best chance of seeing correctly, would not be without interest. I waited for the idea to consolidate, for the grouping and composition of the themes to settle themselves in my brain little by little, of their own accord; and the day when I felt I held enough cards to be able to try my luck with a real hope of success, I determined to pass to action, and did so.” 
- remark on his 'Water lilies' paintings, between 1900 and 1920

Though his vision kept degrading, the artist delayed medical attention for as long as he could. Concerned over the risks of surgery, he waited until 1923 to undergo it for his right eye only—and was at first devastated by the results despite its success. But once he'd adjusted to his post-op vision, Claude Monet continued to paint up until his death in 1926.

With age may come precarious health issues and the unexpected loss of loved ones... Monet experienced both, as well as life during the Great War. He was able to portray the deep feelings that come with these events onto his canvas, in his signature style of Impressionism. I really enjoyed this exhibit, even though it made me really somber at some points.

"The Queen's Mill," ca. 1881.

Gauguin: A Spiritual Journey


Now onto the Paul Gauguin: A Spiritual Journey. Fun fact: this is the first-ever exhibit dedicated to Gauguin shown in San Francisco!

While I recognized one of his famous paintings, I wasn't familiar with the sheer variety and scope of Gauguin's talents, nor I wasn't very knowledgeable of his background and history (professional or personal).

Boy, was I in for a wild ride...


"Skaters in Frederiksberg Park," ca. 1884. My
cousins and I wondered if Gauguin laughed as
he immortalized the person who fell in the ice.
Growing up, Paul Gauguin didn't received any formal training. He was born in Paris but lived in Peru (linked through his maternal heritage) and lived quite the lavish lifestyle in his childhood, but then moved back to France with his mother and siblings to escape political unrest.

When he was just 19 his mother passed away and one of her close friends Gustave Arosa, a wealthy Spanish businessman and art aficionado, became the legal guardian of Gauguin's younger siblings. It was Arosa's large art collection that sparked Gauguin's passion.

"Design for a Fan," ca. 1885.



With the help of Arosa, Gauguin became stockbroker in Paris dealing in the art market. During this time he also married his wife Mette-Sophie Gad in 1873, whom he raised five children with in the span of a decade.

In 1874 he found a teacher and mentor in the Impressionist artist Camille Pissaro, who helped Gauguin hone his natural talent. It took only two years until one of Gauguin's paintings was shown in the Paris Salon—the world-famous and renowned government-sponsored exhibit at the Académie des Beaux-Arts.

"It is extraordinary that anyone could put so much mystery into so much brightness," 
- Stéphane Mallarmé after viewing an exhibition of Gauguin's work in November 1893

"Portrait of Stéphane Mallarmé," ca. 1891. 

Fate saw that the Parisian market crashed in 1882, leaving Gauguin jobless. He, Mette, and the children moved to her homeland in Denmark. His brief stint as a tarp salesman failed miserably and so Mette became the main provider of their household teaching French.

This became an opportunity for Gauguin in pursuing art as a full-time career, and so he did. The family tried moving back to France in 1883, but it proved unsuccessful and they moved back to Copenhagen. He had stayed in Copenhagen and rural France alone during this period, sending his paintings back home for Mette to sell. However, by 1885 their marriage dissolved completely and Gauguin ultimately left the family for Paris. The last he'd physically see Mette and most of his children in-person was 1891.


"Landscape from Tahiti," ca. 1893.


Gauguin's marriage separation was his turning point: he became free to move and act as he pleased. Around 1887 this newfound freedom led him to the exotic and tropical landscapes of Panama, Martinique, and Tahiti.

Here, Gauguin was free to enjoy the pleasures of their indigenous culture. Jobless and without money, he created several beautiful landscapes in his post-Impressionism, Synthesist painting style which focused on the rural lifestyle and the beauty of its people. Not only did he paint, but he also made many wood carvings and ceramics.


"Eve and The Serpent," 1889.
His behavior and works of art from this time has divided the art world. I find some of his works appreciative: his works are quite stunning to look at, and it's speculated that some of his works, like the ones below, feature those identifying as the Polynesian non-binary third gender, mahu. Others make me feel bothered and uneasy. I won't be showing ones I find unsettling, but I will explain why that, despite his undeniable talent, Gauguin is a pretty incredibly unlikeable and downright sleazy person.


"Reclining Tahitian Women," ca. 1894.
I'll start off with the thing that aggravates: his many relationships with young indigenous women. He'd taken several young girls between the ages of 13 and 15 years as lovers and psuedo-wives, often impregnating them without providing much financial support and abandoning them after some time... just like he'd abandoned Mette and their five children! Back then, the age of consent in France was 13—of course, legality doesn't make it any less wrong, but the fact that he really didn't think much about these girls besides to satisfy his own lust and ego (from the general household servitude) is is doubly awful. Just gross.

"Martinique Woman with
Kerchief
," ca. 1887-1888.

Gauguin was free to do what he did because of two things: white supremacy and colonialism. France colonized control over Tahiti and other number of islands, taking resources and land from native people. As all indigenous cultures ravaged by colonization, young girls and women of French Polynesia undoubtedly felt pressured into sex and/or coerced into sex work with wealthy Europeans. In the exhibit, the explanations describing them said it was unknown how willing they really were. As either exploited victims of French colonialism or willing participants in a sexual relationship for economical gain, the circumstances in which Gauguin met and used these women is absolutely atrocious.

I have a 15-year-old wife who cooks my simple everyday fare and gets down on her back for me whenever I want, all for the modest reward of a frock, worth ten francs, a month.” 
- remark that Gauguin, then 48, wrote in a letter to his friend Arman Séguin, in 1897

"Woman with Mango Fruits," ca. 1889.

If his simple philandering doesn't upset you, perhaps knowing that it's been speculated that Gauguin was the one to have sliced off his close friend and fellow painter Vincent van Gogh's ear during a heated argument... although they may have agreed to never reveal the truth out of respect to their past comradery.

Despite all his faults of being an immoral human being, Gauguin's works remain full of wonder and intrigue... for the most part. Once you get past his colonial and white male gaze, his depictions of indigenous women are quite beautiful and stunning. Besides... if art isn't controversial or have an interesting history behind it, is it truly art?

Fitting to the times, the lifestyle he led, and his general character, Paul Gauguin died in 1903—ravaged with syphilis and weakened from alcoholism—from an accidental(?) morphine overdose and  a possible heart attack. Karma may have gotten him at the end but at least we have some cool artwork to remember him by.

I highly recommend seeing both of these collections at San Francisco's de Young Museum if you have the opportunity! Monet: The Late Years is available for viewing until May 27th, 2019; The limited-access exhibit, Gauguin: A Spiritual Journey, sells tickets daily and will remain at the de Young until April 7th, 2019.

DIY: Sweet Almond & Rosehip Face Oil


You don't have to spend big bucks to pamper yourself: making your own beauty & skincare products saves money and can be surprisingly easy, not to mention is highly personalized to your unique skincare needs. Additionally, buying ingredients in bulk and using reusable packaging is eco-friendly by greatly reducing the amount of plastic you consume. In this post, I'll walk you through how I make my own face oil!

Beauty oils have become a preference of mine over lotion, I find them easier to get out of their bottles and a more pleasant application. I also use face oils so frequently and burn through them faster than almost all other skincare products.

Botanics 100%  Organic Nourishing Facial Oil's
simple ingredient list inspired this DIY (via target) 




After reviewing two expensive oils—Mitchell & Peach's Flora No. 1 Face Oil and Caudalie's Divine Oil—and trying a few that I haven't posted about, I wanted to save money on my next full-size purchase, yet still have a high-grade product. The only way to do this was to concoct it myself.

Luckily, I already knew what oils worked for me: the most recent brand I tried seemed to make my skin the happiest! Its ingredient list was so simple to replicate; I already had the essential oils in my collection, so all I needed to purchase was the carrier oils. There was even no need to buy a container for my DIY project; I just peeled off the sticker and reused the old glass bottle.

Brands pictured: Aura Cacia's Sweet Almond Oil, Majestic Pure's 100% Rosehip Oil,
and doTERRA's Geranium, Bergamot, and Lavender Essential Oils.
Sustainability Sidenote: Just think about how much waste this isn't contributing to the planet. Another great reason to do DIY is to prevent waste via skincare packaging. According to the EPA, while glass is recyclable a large portion of it still goes to landfills. So, in addition to other sustainable practices (eco-friendly water bottles & coffee mugs, not using plastic cutlery or straws) keeping DIY products in non-plastic, reusable containers can effectively reduce your waste footprint.

Read below for a straightforward DIY face oil recipe. I used ratios, for those who will use different-sized containers. The ingredients listed below are also suitable for substitution, to better suit your unique skin type.


MAKING SWEET ALMOND & ROSEHIP FACE OIL

Project Duration        5 minutes
   Cost per bottle        $3.60 per 25ml (see calculations below)


Investing in ingredients at the start
will save $$$ spent in the future.
INGREDIENTS

• 100% Pure Rosehip Oil   • Sweet Almond Oil
• Geranium Essential Oil • Bergamot Essential Oil
• Lavender Essential Oil • Glass bottle, any size

DIRECTIONS

1. Use a 1 to 1 ratio between the Rosehip Oil and the Sweet Almond Oil. Their sum should equal the total amount your container can hold. For example, I used roughly 12.5ml of each oil for my 25ml bottle.

2. For the essential oils of your choice, use a ratio of 1 drop to every 5~8ml of oil (depends on your preference).

3. Mix well and store in a container out of direct sunlight.

And that's all there is to it! So easy-peasy, at a fraction of the cost per mL. See below how I calculated costs, savings over time, and important purchasing decisions to consider for this DIY.


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Calculating costs per 25ml bottle


I referenced prices for the ingredients I used—they are in larger sizes (I use them several ways, other than this DIY) and pricier than other brands (doTERRA essential oils). Despite the higher costs of bulk ingredients, costs per ml are still much lower: DIY costs $3.60 per 25ml, compared to store-bought face oil at ~$16.00 per 25ml.


INGREDIENT & BOTTLE SIZE  PRICE per BOTTLE  COST per ML    ML NEEDED    COST
Sweet Almond Oil, 473ml (16oz)       $12.00 / bottle   $0.03 per 1ml    need 12.5ml    $0.40
Rosehip Seed Oil, 118ml (4oz)       $14.00 / bottle   $0.12 per 1ml    need 12.5ml    $1.50
Geranium EO, 15ml (250 drops)       $31.00 / bottle   $0.13 per drop    need ~5 drops    $0.65
Lavender EO, 15ml (250 drops)       $23.00 / bottle   $0.09 per drop    need ~5 drops    $0.45
Bergamot EO, 15ml (250 drops)       $30.00 / bottle   $0.12 per drop    need ~5 drops    $0.60


As you can see, the main reason initial costs run high are essential oils. Their prices reflect the time-consuming process behind extraction. In doTERRA's case, it also reflects ethical business practices of paying fair wages and investing in the communities who grow, harvest, and distill the crops needed for essential oils.


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Unfortunately, doTERRA doesn't sell any smaller sizes for the aforementioned oils! One can simply omit essential oils from their DIY recipe, or try a different brand that sells smaller sizes... however, I do highly recommend doTERRA's oils, as they're transparent with where they source their ingredients, they actively empower communities globally through their Healing Hands Foundation, and their quality control is top-notch.

For those on a tight budget: I recommend saving up for one EO at a time and adding them into your DIY products as they're purchased. It may be worthwhile sharing an essential oil collection between friends if you are infrequent users, which would lessen financial costs and ensure the oils would be used up before their shelf life ends.



What to consider when buying ingredients


You may be tempted to buy an ingredient in bulk and save it for a few years. However, you must always consider an ingredient's shelf life. For example:
  • Both Rosehip Seed Oil and Sweet Almond Oil are good for ~1 year after opening.
While they may not necessarily be rendered unusable, oils are susceptible to deterioration at the end of shelf life, aka loss of their aromatic & therapeutic values from oxidization over time. This may lessen an EO's skincare benefits or cause sensitivity in the skin.

Therefore, always purchase smaller sizes, such as 5ml of essential oils, if you won't use up an ingredient before its expiration—this prevents unnecessary spending, product waste and the risk of possible skin irritation. Better yet, split the costs with friends: pool together money to purchase ingredients and/or build a communal essential oil collection. Holding DIY skincare workshops at-home with friends would be a fun, enriching activity for everyone.



How much money am I really saving?



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The cost of ingredients I purchased may be shocking; at first, I was also skeptical. Out of curiosity, I've budgeted into the future to see if I'm actually saving money after purchasing all these ingredients! I thought others might find this helpful, too.

Firstly, I'll break it down by cost per year. Since 25ml of face oil lasts me around 2½~3 months, this means I use 4~5 bottles per year.

So...

In the 1st year...

 ~$16.00 face oil   x   5 bottles       =         ~$80.00

---------------- vs.

sum of all ingredients       =         $102.00


$$ saved         =         - $22.00



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I found that in the first year, my DIY face oil is slightly more expensive than store-bought face oil. But consider that I personally buy ingredients in larger quantities! If I had purchased smaller quantities or even less-expensive brands, costs may have added up to the same amount.

Additionally, I utilize the entire volume of ingredients in many other ways: as a body oil, in aromatherapy, diffuser, and a few other DIY products. I make up the financial 'loss' of ~$22.00 rather easily in other areas of my life.

Also bear in mind that most EOs last at least two years so there's no need to repurchase them every year like carrier oils. I can make several bottles of face oil indefinitely, repurchasing ingredients each year as needed—instead of buying a store-bought bottle every 2½~3 months.

With that in mind, let's go to the next few years...



In the 2nd & 3rd year...

~$16.00 face oil   x   10 bottles       =         ~$160.00

---------------- vs.

sum of restocked ingredients    x   2 years       =          $52.00
(Rosehip, Sweet Almond)


        $$ saved        =          + $108.00

total $$ saved        =          $86.00



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See that by the 3rd year I'd have saved enough to cover the 1st year deficit, with money to spare at $108.00, or ~$54.00 per year! Fantastic.

Let's move on to the next following year. I'd need to repurchase Bergamot EO, so I'll add that into the sum of restocked ingredients.




In the 4th year...

~$16.00 face oil   x   5 bottles       =         ~$80.00

---------------- vs.

sum of restocked ingredients       =          $56.00
(Rosehip, Sweet Almond, Bergamot)


        $$ saved          =          + $24.00

 total $$ saved         =          $110.00

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The savings are much smaller than the previous year, as EOs are our more expensive ingredients. I'm only saving ~$24.00 this year... but hey, it's better than nothing!

Luckily for the following two years, I won't need to repurchase any EOs (since Lavender and Geranium have shelf lives up to ~6 years). Here's what the next two years would look like:



In the 5th & 6th year...

~$16.00 face oil   x   10 bottles       =       ~$160.00

---------------- vs.

sum of restocked ingredients    x   2 years       =        $52.00
(Rosehip, Sweet Almond)



        $$ saved        =        + $108.00

total $$ saved        =        $218.00


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Again, I save $108.00 or ~$54 per year when there's no need to restock EOs.

In the 7th year, I'll have to restock on my last two ingredients: Lavender and Geranium EOs—I wonder if this will cost more than store-bought oils? Let's find out!



In the 7th year...

~$16.00 face oil   x   5 bottles       =         ~$80.00

---------------- vs.

                sum of restocked ingredients       =         ~$80.00
(Rosehip, Sweet Almond, Geranium, Lavender)


        $$ saved      =       + $0.00

total $$ saved      =       $218.00


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It looks like I break even on $$ in the year I repurchase Lavender and Geranium EOs! Very interesting, indeed.

The next year would repeat like the 3rd year in which I'd restock on Bergamot EO (~$24.00 savings that year), and so on!

Conclusion: From these calculations, I've learned that even if I didn't save any money in the first year and the years I restock on Lavender and Geranium, this DIY practice is still money-saving altogether, over time.


At first, buying bulk ingredients for DIYs is more expensive—especially when it comes to essential oils. However, this investment of making your own skincare products is more cost-effective in the long run, as the initial amount purchased is enough for many refills over several years. You also aren't being as wasteful per year, recycling between 1 to 3 containers less than with store-bought face oils. Overall, this is an incredibly easy and super customizable DIY that I find worth doing, and I hope this example inspires you to do the same.